Friday, October 31, 2008

Ambition...

I longed for the twinkling stars,
To be within my easy reach….

Trapped in the oceanic whirl,
Thought for being at the beach…

Without caring for broken legs,
Tried to conquer the highest peak…

Wanted to see the hydrosphere,
As a mighty drop inside ostrich beak…

Thought for walking barefoot over the mighty sun’s surface,
And to see from there every planet, like a perpetual blossom around thy face….

You need light,
I am a fading lamp…

You like attics,
I am a camp…

You like calm & peace,
I am a champ…

You desire soft and tender,
I am hemp…

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Happy Diwali!!





Have a prosperous Diwali. Hope this festival of lights, brings you every joy and happiness. May the lamps of joy, illuminate your life and fill your days with the bright sparkles of peace, mirth and goodwill, because you are someone who deserves life’s best and so much more. Have a joyous Diwali and new year.

Happy Diwali to you and your family..enjy!!

Hitler's: The Enigma of a Dark Lord



I’d like to share a revelation with you, it came to me when I was doing nothing ( as usual) and just going through what I had written in my post about the Dada..

But what got me thinking was Hitler….(??!!) every time I have ever heard of the man...he was described as an evil man, a demon, the devil himself...etc etc…and no doubt .the events that occurred in the world at that time , it was probably justified to call him so, I am not , never was , n never will be a big history freak , but the Nazis intellect , and their ideology was one thing that fascinated me...wht..!!!u say??. How can I say such a thing!!!..well lemme explain.

I am no fan of their bullshit, but what interests me is that how did one man, on so called mad man, manage to convince the entire population or at least a sizable majority of it , to blindly follow him into their destruction and humiliation.
So the question that recurs in my mind is that , was this man really evil or insane, have to clarify that these two words have completely different meanings, I believe that he was insane, not pure evil, though the acts committed by his followers were evil to the bone..

Whats the difference?..you will ask?!
I have read or at least tried to read his autobiography Mein Kampf…couldn’t read more than a 100 pages cause half of what he wrote went completely over my head, wt did go in gave me this picture, his childhood was a very disturbed time,, not like the one we encountered today,(heart breaks n all).. but his problems were social, all around him , things were degrading, disintegrating in shambles...and he was a poor man angry with the system…and that system is what he tried to fight against.
His book was all about the discrepancies of communism, democracy, ( Hell !!!..his description of a session of parliament in Vienna that he observed was so similar to the ones that happen here today in India ,,,that I just burst out laughing:), and even then, there, the politicians were just as useless and selfish as now. So here we have a angry young man, poor, frustrated, and losing faith in everything around him ,,,and what does he sees…the prosperous Jews, and that’s how the tragedy began,

But I guess one man alone in that state of mind cannot do anything, so just goes to show how bad things were in Germany at that time, that when a young Adolf Hitler began to cry out against Jews n other communities , there was tremendous support for his what otherwise would have been mad rambling,, ( compare this to what the RSS, VHP, Shiv Sena do to the hindu population in India,, ) and there you have it , DISASTER.

So what am I trying to prove you will ask me, I don’t know for sure ,cause I don’t know the entire fact yet, but from what a 22 year old has read in his history books and a few novels, and also from watching discovery channel , I think Hitler started out with a picture in mind for a better Germany , but ended up controlling the reins of the most murderous bunch of bastards ever to be seen in this world, and another thing compared to them (and these are specific people of top nazi command ) Hitler was sane, these men were the ones who thought up about the concentration camps that brought about the holocaust, there is also a matter of honor Hitler when he stood defeated as Russian tanks rolled in to Berlin, took his own life, unlike some of his most loyal followers and the real hands behind the Nazi war, who ran away to live in hiding in countries all over the world with the money they plundered from their own people. But what is done is done, no one will ever know what the real Hitler was, we will only what his then enemies will want us to hear about him. And if now you are wondering why after more than 50 years and Indian kid is talking about Hitler, this is the reason .

Let us assume for once that Hitler never existed, that he never created the Nazi ideology, and that the events that the changed the face of the earth all those years ago , never happened, no world war II, good??, or bad??.

Here’s what I think, the war raged on for almost 5-7 years, and in that period of time, England was brought to its knees, the greatest imperial power in the world was using every resource it had, financial and human, in to the war effort. And in the end, it left that power weak , financially, emotionally , physically. Great Britain was too weak to control its largest colony; INDIA. So there, England was in shambles and it needed all its men n women to come to its rescue to rise again, but at the same time the freedom movement in India couldn’t be kept in check because of the preoccupation of all the brits in the war. And so they retreated, decided that India was no longer in their control and left. (of course thanks to their divide and rule policy , our country was spilt into 2 and we been fighting ever since) but they left.

Now back to our earlier assumption that the war never happened; great Britain would have remained in all its glory the greatest imperial power in the world, America would be the new world trying to cut its teeth in to the world economy, India would have remained as a beautiful crown jewel in the British crown , its most prosperous colony.
What about India’s freedom struggle, it would be suppressed, divided by a shrewd British rule where it would probably have to lie in shadows, fighting like guerillas like the Chechens are doing now in what’s left of Russia, or maybe , in due time, the Indians would have accepted the British way of life. Mahatma Gandhi, Nehru, Sardar Patel and Jinnah even couldn’t have lived for ever, after them maybe the new breed of Indian leaders would be pro british. Don’t know how it would go from there,but maybe we could have been more prosperous, more advanced, like Hong-Kong. ( now there’s an example of brit rule for you)..Maybe they wouldn’t have the same plans for India...but he u never know..

So,makes ya think doesn’t it, it far far away, a man called Hitler hadn’t done what he did. Our past , our present , our future could have been so very different.
But looking at the state of our country today, how do you feel ,, good ?? or bad??

Friday, October 24, 2008

Salute!!


This is to a man who taught me how to fight...
a man who showed others that we are not here for charity...
who dared to be aggressive when everybody else had their tails in their legs...
a man who brought aggression, passion and fire in the team....
a man who decided what is right n wrong...
a man who broke the usual path...
a man who was insulted by his own people for breaking the rules

This is to a man whom I support...to the only "MAN" the Indian team has had...

This is to Saurav Ganguly...my inspiration of life time, a die hard fighter..somone who made me believe that whatever the pundits say...with your guts u can always prove them wrong....

You play or you don’t …Dada, I ‘ll be your fan forever…

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Yipee!!!



Sam called me today saying that he was pissed of with his morbid routine of going to office and coming back home everyday...and he needed a change.:( I hate when people call me and do this sissy baby act…like I am some sort of superman who will rescue them from there trouble all the time…i realy hate it.


But this time this chap had something to suggest…a weekend trek in Rishikesh. Man!! I was shocked...for your friends do not call at 11 in the night and say “chal yar kal rishikesh chalte hai”…for god's sake yar,its rishikesh not C.P..


But than I thought It wasn’t a bad idea even…It would be a much needed break for me too..had a tough month with HCL’s training shit…Convincing mom was still left though…but it wasn’t a big deal either...some emotionally blackmailing dialogues like “last holidays of my college life” or “once I join HCL, you know I will hardly get time for these things”.and And mom said O.K..


So I am leaving for rishikesh tomorrow 6 P.M..Wow!! second trip in last 3 month…

Though the water sports would be closed by now..but hopefully we will get to do some good trekking in Pauri region…


Ya! Need to pack my bags now…bye !!



It's October again!!


It's October again

Leaves are falling down like rain

One more year's come and gone

But nothing's changed

Wasn't I supposed to be someone

Who could face the

things that I've been

running from?


Let me feel

I don't care if I break down

Let me fall

Even if I hit the ground

If I cry a little

And die a little

At least I know I lived

Just a little

Let me feel

Let me fall


I become much too good at

being invincible

I'm an expert at 'play

it safe' and 'keep it cool'

But I swear this is not

who I'm meant to be

I refuse to let my

life fall over me


Let me feel

I don't care if I break down

Let me fall

Even if I hit the ground

If I cry a little

And die a little

At least I know I lived

Just a little

Let me feel

Let me fall


Yes, I'm gonna be someone

Ya! gonna be someone

If I take it as it comes

If I face the things

that I've been running from

I've been running from


Let me feel

I don't care if I break down

Let me fall

Even if I hit the ground

If I cry a little

And die a little

At least I know I lived

Just a little


Let me feel

Let me fall


It's October again

The leaves are falling

down like rain Oh...



Thursday, October 9, 2008

Irony of the UNFORGETTABLES..

“Its hard to let go someone who was so close to you that you thought they were for you only…but its still harder to let go some one who was never urs,but still changed ur life…”

Read these lines somewhere and was just wondering how magical they are.
Life has its own way of making people meet. Sometimes you accidentally find people whom you would have loved to meet and sometimes you would have hated even to see them in your worst nightmare.
But then this is life,you will have to bear with it …
The guy who just gave me a lift yesterday,the guys with whom I played cricket in the park on last weekend…
Many kinda people on this earth we meet.Sometimes for a second,sometimes for a day and sometimes they are with us for years…But then they all have to leave some day,leaving behind their memories. Sometimes sweet, sometimes bitter…temporary or permanent..

In them there are some who hit so hard that they just change the direction of one lives...and the moments we shared with them becomes unforgettable…THE UNFORGETTABLES...I like to call them.
There are many unforgettables in evryones life,some are in mine too…and I bet u do have some,whom u have not forgotten or rather have not been able to forget.
Just think about someone UNFORGETTABLE….
Hah!!! THE UNFORGETTABLES…
When you are with them it seems…hit!! You have figured out what life is…its seems a dream coming true,we live in this illusion that these moments will last forever We wish they never end..

But then the worst thing about life is “It screws u right at the moment u think u have figured it out correctly.”


Time or maybe faith compels u to part ….u keep on wondering what went wrong… lucky one figure it out …some unluckys are unable too. U try your best to tie both the end…but than it all fall apart…like it had to be
It reminds me of the song “IN THE END”
I tried so hard,
and got so far,
But in the end it doesent even matters,
I had to fall,
to loose it all…
But in the end it doesent even matters


Hah!! Still true…

For a moment it seems this was the worst thing that can happen. Why Was it supposed to happen to me only?? U shout, u cry…..but don’t get any answer..I loosed it…disappointment, feeling of being a loser,irritations,numbness engulfs you.

But then there is a real good thing about time,”If it gives u the wound, it heels them too”. With time life again gets on to its track….The same getting up in the morning ..running to the office/ college….newer friends ….new works and perhaps…………
A New life.

Evry thing get washed away. . things seem to getting ok.

Then one day u hear a very special song …or witness an incident…That brings u back the glimpse of those old UNFORGETTABLE moments..
U sit down on an arm chair…and think bout those happy moments..
A smile spreads on your face…..a blush come too… cherishing those unforgettable moments.
And if u happen to b a blogger…u jot down them..so that someone else can cherish them..As I did it today…
Hah!!!!THE UNFORGETTABLES….

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Tribute

"............................

Jeevan Main Madhu Ka Pyala Tha
Tumnay Tan Man De Daala Tha
Wah Toot Gaya To Toot Gaya

Madiralya Kay Aangan Ko Dekho
Kitne Pyale Hil Jaate Hain
Gir Mitti Main Mil Jaate Hain
Jo Girte Hain Kab Uthte Hain
Par Bolo Toote Pyalo Par
Kab Madiralaya Pachtata Hai

Jo Beet Gayi So Baat Gayi!!

Mredu mitti k hai bane huye hai
Madhughat phoota hi karte hai
Laghu jeevan le kar aaye hai
Pyale tuta hi karte hai
Fir bhi mandirayal k andar
Madhu k ghat hai madhupyale hai.
Jo madakta k pyare hai
Vo madhu luta hi karte hai
Vo kaccha peene vala hai
Jiski mamta ghat pyalo par
Jo sacche madhu se jala hua hai
Kab rota hai pachtata hai

...................................."
-An Extract from Bacchan ji's "JO BEET
GAYI SO BAAT GAYI".


Never got an oppurtunity to read Bacchan ji much,but i beleive this poem would have been no less than a masterpeice. Read it first,some six-seven years back(X class)..bt the gravity of the lines still keep me hooked to it.Evey line has got amazing sense..and lyrics wonderful..he defenetely deserves a salute for it..